Quite Bigger, Maybe Better
The day has come. I'm in no training wheels anymore. After this weekend, I'll be moving to a new location, quite farther than the current, but this is where I should be and the reason why I was trained beforehand.
It is bitter-sweet, if I may say. It's nice to know that this is growth and gives me a sense of (more) independence to challenge myself to decide and do things mostly my own at this point in time. I'd be lying if I said that I didn't doubt myself, I still am until now, and I know I still will. On the other hand, it is hard to leave people (of course, not entirely because I'll be just moving) I've been with for half of 2019. In fact, they helped me to know myself better and gave me a direction of who I really want to be - as a person and as a leader.
It was and still a tough road for all of us. I'm confident that we all share the same sentiments, and it's great to receive assistance and support from people I didn't expect in the beginning. It was eye-opening, and it made me re-affirm that maybe, just maybe, I'm doing good than I thought I would. It was heartwarming to hear stories aligned with mine, it was great that my colleagues empathize, and turned into 'friends' than mere officemates.
Maybe doubting a little bit about yourself could be healthy as it gives us the humility and modesty. It walks us through to the tunnel of confidence and balances it in the middle or just enough for us to carry ourselves through the job that has been entrusted to us.
It is quite a bigger challenge, but maybe it's better. I know it won't be easy, and I'll probably be more clueless as I was, but it's nice to have a little obstacle.
It is bitter-sweet, if I may say. It's nice to know that this is growth and gives me a sense of (more) independence to challenge myself to decide and do things mostly my own at this point in time. I'd be lying if I said that I didn't doubt myself, I still am until now, and I know I still will. On the other hand, it is hard to leave people (of course, not entirely because I'll be just moving) I've been with for half of 2019. In fact, they helped me to know myself better and gave me a direction of who I really want to be - as a person and as a leader.
It was and still a tough road for all of us. I'm confident that we all share the same sentiments, and it's great to receive assistance and support from people I didn't expect in the beginning. It was eye-opening, and it made me re-affirm that maybe, just maybe, I'm doing good than I thought I would. It was heartwarming to hear stories aligned with mine, it was great that my colleagues empathize, and turned into 'friends' than mere officemates.
Maybe doubting a little bit about yourself could be healthy as it gives us the humility and modesty. It walks us through to the tunnel of confidence and balances it in the middle or just enough for us to carry ourselves through the job that has been entrusted to us.
It is quite a bigger challenge, but maybe it's better. I know it won't be easy, and I'll probably be more clueless as I was, but it's nice to have a little obstacle.
Where will you be heading?
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