Shainne Hostalero

Lately, I've had enough of people. Well, some. They seem so toxic for me, and I know, and I don't want to live my life feeling like this all time. I've lost many people in life (literally), and that made me more firm in thinking that life is... indeed short. More than a year ago, I lost my uncle. He was my confidant through all these years, and it was sudden that he passed away. Up until now, I cannot talk about him without shedding tears and feeling sad. There are lots of ifs, buts, and what could have been. It was and still so painful. I felt like I've lost a friend. I can only count the people who have been with me when I was down and who never left my side through all the pains and aches in life. Maybe three? Never a lover. Honestly, among the ones I have dated in the past 'til the present, I haven't found a non-judgmental individual. Like the one who will love you at your worst. Maybe this love I've found all along was shallow. Perhaps I haven'

2018 was one hella challenging year for me. The depression, the questionable life, and other challenges. I went to a whirlwind of emotions and workaholism. LOL. I have managed to survive, anyway. Business was good in 2018, and I hope it continues. I have discovered so many things about myself, too. Things that I did not even notice even way before. I think that was what reflection can do for you. My experiences are humbling. I was always being reminded to remain simple, get my feet to stay on the ground, and cherish people who want to be part of my life. I have managed to eliminate people who only remember me because they needed something or purely bored and I was the nearest person whom they can bug and willing to entertain. I have had enough. Bahala na kayo sa buhay niyo! Hahaha! I started 2019 with flu. I thought 2018 would spare me from any form of sickness, but NO. The universe has its own way of reminding me that I am only human and I need rest, too. I worked non-stop for t